This is the first month in maybe a year that I do not have a show. It is sort of strange, I am floundering a bit. I am a person motivated by stress and deadlines, perhaps the fear of failure, have been this way my entire life. I am super motivated by time and being punctual and crossing things off my lists. Getting shit done. Probably not all that healthy but what I do.
Comes from being an old project manager.
When there are no fixed deadlines to meet things get a little squirrelly.
I know I need to put my shop together but I am like, why bother? Lots of things to do here, a lot of clean up but lacking a designated endpoint I am having a hard time motivatiing.
Still I bit off a decent chunk this morning.
I am in a weird situation where the majority of the people I fraternize with are retired. I am still very much production oriented, has been a survival mechanism for going on sixty nine years. I think I would go crazy doing nothing, golfing or biking or maybe even becoming a serial alcoholic. People talk about a protestant work ethic but in terms of productivity they got nothing on the tribe.
I would be bored shitless going nothing, think it more probable that I get dragged out of a show or the shop with a toe tag some day. I love buying, selling not quite as much and I love decorative arts in general and seeing and acquiring beautiful things.
Don't think I could handle not working and it is a good thing because I need the money.
I have some amazing material for my shows in Santa Fe and Albuquerque, things I have been holding back.
Dixon stopped by today and I shared some of my new acquisitions with him.
It is titled The Acrobats or Saltembiques, from 1969.
It has twice sold for over 19k at auction.
I am going to send this one to auction as well.
We will see how it does.
I thought that it was toned but took it out of frame and Dixon noticed that it is actually the paper color.
Saves me money on restoration.
Yippee!
It was obvious from what I heard that she had an impact on a lot of people in a profound way.
We were friends but not close friends.
I loved her laughter, it was ever present and genuine.
A success in the corporate world, she turned her sights inward in some point and was a member of the Hilltop Center.
We saw a lot of old friends there.
Dave and Robin played and Mike, her boyfriend on nine years, gave a short speech.
I enjoyed talking to Reverend Guy, a fellow lover of Tolkien.
He is a very well rounded guy intellectually, we discussed Freemasonry and some other things. I asked him if he had hermetic training, one thing he said during his talk triggered me and he told me of his interest in Franz Bardon, who I know little of.
Guy is a deep well.
Going to be an interesting week. Cardiologist and then a new experimental cancer treatment later in the week.
Be well!
1 comment:
Great seeing you there BH! It was wonderfully done!
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