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Blue Heron in flight

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Nightly Visitor


I have been having a reoccurring dream - last night was the third time this week. I am at an antique show. I am naked or in my underwear. I have scrounged junk to try to sell. No one is buying anything. The customers and dealers are all very young. Many of them are doing quite well. Last night's version had a brown haired cosmopolitan girl asking me about the prominent scar on my chest from my open heart surgery. I am being inspected as if I am another old artifact.

I sense my nakedness but don't have the will or the ability to change it. I have a sense of shame coupled with serious questions of self esteem. Most of the people don't seem terribly concerned. I get angry and throw a particularly patronizing twenty something out of my booth. He turns out to be a very important buyer from New York whom I have alienated. It is my turn to lose.

The dream shifts and I now am driving a car on a high mountain ridge with my brother and father. Through snow and deep ravines. I only remember bits and pieces.

If any of you catch me in my near naked state, either find me a shrink or throw me a pair of skivvies, will you?

6 comments:

Sanoguy said...

Please spare us the imagery of you naked at an antique show!! I am thinking that may be the reason that people aren't buying anything!! Put on some clothes. Please!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Hey what happened to not blogging and keeping your thoughts to your self, Thank you for not shutting up and keeping your brain stuff inside. Its good to let speeew, mine is bolstered and will come forth in week and half. See you soon, let know about room. Big wet kisses. P.S. Thinking of your gapping chest scare, oh so hot!!!

C.

Anonymous said...

You're always naked in my dreams too -- wierd.

"Don't seek to understand your dreams or to connect with them. Seek to be entertained by them, not enlightened." Frida Kahlo. rc

wave_man said...

It is weird how much we are starting to look more alike as I (we) get older. By the way, that was scary.

Blue Heron said...

I think you are right, Johnnie. Will be in the Bay Area early november.

grumpy said...

"To dream that you are naked, foretells scandal and unwise engagements...to dream that you suddenly discover your nudity, and are trying to conceal it, denotes that you have sought illicit pleasure contrary to your noblest instincts and are desirous of abandoning those desires."

Ten Thousand Dream Interpreted, by Gustavus Hindman Miller, 1931